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Came back after 12am last night but slept at 2am; got up at about 8.30am; went church and dance practise after that. Now i’m back home; going out in a while for a wedding dinner.

Draining. But i’m loving what i’m doing right now. =)

Contentment, please stay. =)

7 hours in exchange for 2 hours!

He has been gracious to me in many ways. I’ve sin, habour evil desires and at times i’ve taken Him for granted yet He forgave me when i asked for forgiveness and repented against my sins. I could not have done it without His help. For i am reminded with this verse Philippians 4:3, i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. 

Hebrews 4:15, The High Priest of ours, understands our weaknesses as He has been through the same testing as us yet He did not sin.

Temptations could be overcome with His help!

He has answered my prayers in many ways;

December -  He finally answered my prayer when i asked Him to send me a group of christian friends that i could grow spiritually in and to be able to build a solid foundation in His words. The only silly thing i did was i did not pray specifically. He gave me 3 cell groups and i had to make a choice to stick to one. It wasn’t easy but He help me through it.

January - I was utterly worried about getting a placement for my intern in May. I’ve sent out my resume to as many companies as i could last year October/November and yet i did not receive any call until January! The call finally came during the week of CNY. I was so excited about it but the only thing was they wasn’t offering me my major. They offered me to do purchasing dept instead of finance as they told me that there wasn’t any vacancy in the finance dept. I was half-hearted at that moment to accept the offer or to reject it but i finally accepted it.

Then the second call came, still from the same company but offer me to do HR this time, then the third call came. It was for the interview for HR dept. When i finished the phone interview, i was frustrated because i wanted to do finance. I just utter out, Oh God! please let the fourth call be FINANCE! and true enough when the fourth call came they offered me to do payroll under finance dept! and they interview me over the phone itself! and the fifth call came in the end to confirm me as an intern. my heart was felt with thankfulness! and i’m starting my work on May 28!

 I know the path is not gonna be an easy one but again this verse reminded me Matthew 28:20, for He has promised to be with you in whatever you do and in wherever you go. Throughout the whole period while waiting for the confirmation and the calls, it took up 3 months! Imagine the adrenaline rush in me and the nerve-wrecking moments. But He pull me through it all. He gave me friends to encourage me to hang on and wait for it. Doubts did fill in during those time that i have to wait. I’m just a human like you. He continue to assure me all is well. I thank Him for all that.

February - Another miracle thing happened. I was frustrated over how things has been going on. I wanted to claim back the money my university has been owing me and i was left headless with no sense of direction to go because i’m in the regional campus and not in the main campus itself. So to get to the person in charge, i’ll have to go through and find it out myself. It was another nerve-wrecking moment.

My weakness was I do things hastily. When i want things i want that at that time. My waiting patience is very very low. I managed to get hold of the person in charge and I was taken by surprise at how fast the reply was. I called him right after my work and he told me he would email me the details. I did not ask when he would send me the email. I was telling to myself; it’s gonna be another long wait and i grumble to Him about it, but it wasn’t what i initially thought! he send me the email 15mins after that. I immediately replied his email and i called him the next day to ask if he has received my email. He said yes and he told me that i will have to wait until the end of April to get it back. Don’t worry about anything instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all he has done, Philippians 4:6

March - I fasted and prayed for 3 days because i was really troubled by the choices i have to make. In that 3 days, i really felt peace in my heart. The verse on keeping your conscience clear has been popping out in different verses constantly. It put a smile on my face. I know He was at work and He was with me all this while. His words were always true when He has promised that He will never leave us and He will never fail us. The feelings i had were indescribable.

April - There’s one particular incident that i got myself involved in last year and i’ve been trying hard to put down. I admit it wasn’t easy and i do know it wasn’t pleasing in His eyes because I know it wasn’t right.

These verses remind me again, 1 Peter 3:14 But even if you suffer for doing what is right, God will reward you for it. So don’t worry or be afraid of their threats. 1 Peter 3:9 Don’t repay evil for evil. Don’t retaliate with insults when people insult you. Instead, pay them back with a blessing. That is what God has called you to do, and he will bless you for it. These words seems to be impossible to do it but when the Holy Spirit guides you and with His strength and understanding of this Scripture, it is easy.

 I did put my foot down in February itself because knowing it was the right thing to do. I believed He still sees me through it and i believe all will be well and is well.

I am not perfect as i am born with flaws but He accepted me and took me in despite my weakness. That is the meaning of Grace - unconditional love.

Thank you God for ALL you have done. Thank you for see-ing me through my struggles and journeying it through with me.

Good friday is just 2 days away. It reminds us of what you have done.